Thursday, November 11, 2010

Raise Your Hand If You're Insane.

Some part of me thought that college would be easier than high school. I thought I would escape the guys that talked about inappropriate things. I thought I would escape the arrogance and the craziness. But I didn't. There are still those guys that I would love to punch in the face. There are still those people that love to talk about themselves. Isn't this place supposed to be about maturity? High school was rough. I was put in lockers, thrown in trash cans, spit on, called awful names, and made fun of. Although college hasn't been that bad yet, I guess I just had high hopes. The truth is that college is hard. All new people. Tons of work. College is asking almost too much for a 21st century student. "Do your homework. Oh wait but you need to study for this exam. Wait you need to go to church. Wait you haven't seen your friends in weeks. Wait your personal life is falling apart. Wait how long has it been since you have read your bible? Wait how many hours of sleep did you get?" There are not enough hours in a day these days. A few more hours would be nice. Balance is a rare commodity these days. I find that I am holding on by a thread sometimes. And even better I am broke, unemployed, insomniac, losing touch with all of my friends, and its only the first quarter. I don't like this. The only good part of college is bible study. I wonder if I could steal a bachelor's and masters degree without actually going to college....hmm. Satan is loving this. he is trying to hit me where it hurts. Its very possible that I will be in a coma by the end of the year. hip hip hooray college is dumb. Worth it?
Thus, concluding the ramblings of an overwrought crazy person.

3 comments:

Becca said...

I know that money is an issue...but i honestly believe you would love it here. Living with your friends, being surrounded by people that are in love with Jesus and want to serve Him with their whole lives, being supported in your school work, because everyone is having as hard of a time with that one essay or that one final as you are, taking classes learning things you love and having profs who care more about your heart than your grade. I know you dont want to come here, but i wish you did. You would do amazing here. But, God has a plan for you, and you should follow where you feel led, no matter what your crazy friend says. I love you. And im praying for you. <3

Kelsey said...

Well to be honest I am not really sure where I am being led at the moment. The only reason I am going to this school is because it's cheap. I never really liked it that much in the first place. If Christian colleges were cheaper, than I would go to one in a heartbeat. But I simply can't afford it. UW tacoma is only one step up from community college basically. I would love to go to Northwest, but Northwest wants me to be broke for the rest of my life. I have been considering transfering somewhere else after two years. We'll see. Taking it a day at a time.

Becca said...

Private School isnt as expensive as everyone seems to think. With scholarships (which you will get seeing as you are wicked smart and talented), grants and loans that are reasonable NU is very do-able. Once they figure out how much you can pay they pretty much give you the rest in scholarships. So just keep praying about it. Transferring after two years may be a good call. God has it all figured out, so try not to worry. I love you and im praying <3